tin2joy

Truth Hurts

tin2joy — Tue, 19 Apr 2011 03:27:28 +0000

I’m caught in between my best friend and two other very good friends who are not in speaking terms right now. It’s not easy to speak the truth, but someone has to say it. The gap has widened and no one is taking the first step to bridge it.

Maybe I shouldn’t have said anything, but this has gone on for too long. I feel for my best friend. I can’t stand seeing her hurt and in the dark about what’s being said about her.

Now that the truth is out, all we can do is wait. Whatever the reaction of the others may be, I think it’s still a win-win situation. Because even if the truth hurts, it still sets everyone free – including those who don’t want to hear it.

Settling Down in Manila

tin2joy — Sat, 16 Apr 2011 00:39:27 +0000

It’s official – we are now Metro Manila residents. After a year of planning and anticipation, we finally made the big move. I found it easy to decide to leave my job and my friends, but it was very hard to leave the parents. I worry for them, especially because they are both getting old and Nanay still has not regained her full functionality.

For the last two weeks, the kids and I have spent most of our days cooped up in the apartment. They stay in bed, play, or watch TV, while I do motherly stuff – i.e., cook, clean, wash clothes, fix the apartment. Since I rarely got the chance to do these home economics activities while we were in Bacolod (thanks to our very capable helper), I’m actually enjoying this.

I’m supposed to start work next week, but my contract hasn’t been finalized yet, so I’m given more time to spend with the kids. No big deal. I’m happy that I can still be here for them, if only for one more week. Because the minute work starts, I know that my attention will be divided – into three! That’s Dean, the kids, and work. For now, I’m just enjoying being a mom and wife. I’m happy to see my husband every day. I’m happy that after a long day at work, he can come home to a hot meal and a family that he can enjoy eating the meal with.

Enzo asked me the other day, “Is our apartment a house or a home?” I told him, a home is a place where everybody loves each other and where there is happiness. No matter how small this space of ours may be, I still know that this is a home.

Mixed Signals

tin2joy — Thu, 03 Mar 2011 12:59:22 +0000

I don’t get it. One minute everything seems to be falling into place, and then the next minute things are going out of whack. What the..?

I’d like to think that the BIG decision I made this past year is in tune with what God actually wants for my life. All of a sudden, it seems that I’ve been getting the wrong signals. Or did I?

I just wish that things will fall into place. Moving to a different place and transferring to a different job is not for the faint of heart. I’m not scared of taking that leap of faith, but I just wish things were clearer.

Can somebody just please tell me what God is up to? Please.

separation anxiety

tin2joy — Fri, 09 Jul 2010 15:56:30 +0000

I find myself writing again, after a long time of being silent. I need an outlet and what better way to release all my pent up emotions than to write? I have this blog after all, and it is just here, gathering dust. Nobody probably reads it anymore. I am not as prolific as I used to be, thanks to my heavy workload. Nonetheless, writing is cathartic, and so I blog.

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It hurts to be physically separated from the one I love. I long to feel his arms around me, to have him hug me tight, and tell me sweet nothings.

I know that this separation is not going to last long, that soon, we will be together. For now, I must endure. I must feel the pain of not having him beside me.

I know that this is for our good, that I supported his career move because in the end, it will bring us closer to our dreams. But for now, I must be patient. I have to go about my daily activities, carrying them out as if I feel just bright and breezy. I can’t be sulky and moody all the time because I have to think about my kids and about him, too.

I know that he, too, is feeling the pain of our separation. Yet, I must be strong for him. I must put on a brave face and tell him that things will be okay. That we will have our chance to be together soon.

For now, we bear our burdens and wait.

I’m Back!

tin2joy — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 13:50:59 +0000

I haven’t blogged in WordPress for a loooong time. In fact, I haven’t blogged at all. I’ve been content to just go through my Facebook account, comment on some people’s posts, add pictures, and from time to time write something. But as for blogging, haven’t really done it for more than a year.

Now that I have a faster Internet connection at home, I’m hoping I can update my blog more often. I miss this.