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I haven’t blogged since last week because I simply had no time to blog.  Last week I was busy processing my requirements for my new job.  I also had my hands full over the weekend – and until today – because Enzo still has no yaya.  It’s been almost two weeks since the yaya left, presumably to bring some money to her family.  She promised to return the next day, but until now there is no sign of her.  I’m pissed off like hell.  What makes me even more angry is that I let her bring home our extra cellphone so I could contact her.  I’ve been calling her since the weekend she left, but I keep on getting the “out of coverage” signal.  To make matters worse, Evie’s yaya is also planning to go home tomorrow because she says she has to take care of her father who is sick.  I don’t know if I can still take anymore of this.  I can’t afford to be absent from my new job!  I badly need helpers for my two kids by tomorrow!

To top it all off, my son needs to be enrolled in school by June but we don’t have enough to pay for his tuition.  Our monthly amortization for our lot is two weeks delayed.  And I still have to pay the helpers and Nay’s attendants.  Not to mention the many other bills waiting to be paid.  Aaarggghhh!

I don’t really want to tell the whole world about my problems, but I just can’t help but rant.  I know that life isn’t fair, that everybody has his/her share of problems, but things just suck in my life right now.  I know I have to face these problems squarely, but sometimes I just wish things were different.  I know there is no one to blame – not God, not me, not my mom – that’s just the way things are.  I know I have to learn to live with that.  I know I have to be an adult and just face up to whatever life throws me.  It’s just too damn hard to do that and I don’t know if I can take it anymore.

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Finally! I get to blog.  This has been a busy week, so far, for me.  And to think that it's only Wednesday!  After that brief vacation in Dumaguete, it's back to reality for me.  I really want to write about my Dumaguete trip, but I'll save that for later.  I still have a ton of things to do, papers to process for my new employer, and other loose ends to tie up with my old job.

Monday we brought the kids to their pedia for a regular check-up.  So far, so good.  Enzo hasn't had an asthma attack in months and Evie is in good health, too.  And she's growing fast! 

Yesterday, I went to NBI to get a clearance.  I was mildly surprised to find no pila and was pleased to get my clearance in only 20 minutes.  That was quick!  That's only one of the many documents/things I have to accomplish.  I have a long list of things to do in my planner (about 15 of them) and I have only done 4 so far.  Hay, naku!   

I just came from SSS and Pag-Ibig to process my mom's disability claims.  Hay!  The long lines at SSS just piss me off!  And there are so many slow people who just make the transactions longer with their stupid questions and incomplete documents.  Good thing I didn't have to wait long at Pag-Ibig. But I still have to submit some supporting documents before I can finally process my mom's claims.  I just hope everything will turn out alright.

I was so stressed out this weekend because Enzo's yaya went home and promised to come back Sunday.  Until now, she's not back yet.  So my son is yaya-less again.  I had to leave him home with Nanay's attendants and Evie's yaya.  I hope I can find a helper before school starts.

Now, it's raining here again.  I guess the rainy season is here na because it also rained yesterday.  Waaah!!! I don't like the rain.

Anyway, I gotta go.  This is going to be another busy, busy, busy day.

Au revoir for now!

Finally, I got the much-needed break I've been pining for – I am now officially on vacation at Dumaguete!  Dean and I got here last night, at around 7pm, after a four-hour drive from Bacolod.  We had no hotel reservations, but we took a chance on Coco Grande Hotel along Silliman Avenue.  Good thing they had an available room. 

We had dinner with some friends at Le Chalet along the famed Boulevard.  Medyo pricey, but the servings were quite large (we found this out when our orders came) and the food tasted great. 🙂 

I don't really have plans on where to go.  I've been to Dumaguete several times na and I've seen most of the must-see sites.  I just want to relax and have time for myself.  I just had a mani/pedi at David's Salon and maybe later I'll get a massage.  🙂 

Ooops, hubby's here na.  Gotta go.  More of my Dumaguete adventures soon.

First of all, I want to greet my Tatay and Nanay Happy 32nd Anniversary! I love you both so much!

Secondly, let me tell you why I'm happy today.  Although I was already told of being accepted in La Salle mid-April pa, I was still asked to go to a panel interview today, for formality's sake daw.  So I did.  The interview went well.  The first thing they asked me was, "How's your mom?"  That's no surprise since everyone who was in the panel was either my mom's contemporary or her student.  Anyway, they asked the usual questions like why I decided to leave my current job and apply for a teaching post, and how do I see myself five years from now (honestly, is there no better question job interviewers can ask?).  Even though that was just a formality, I still had butterflies in my stomach considering that I haven't had a job interview for the past 6 years! (Yup, that's how long I've been with my current employer.)  Nonetheless, I think I did well in the interview, gave the right answers, and convinced them that they were doing the right thing of hiring me.  🙂  I'm just glad I got that over and done with.

Another reason why I'm happy is that the friend whom I helped (read about this here) got the best dissertation award!  I'm happy that all our efforts have paid off. I spent sleepless nights analyzing his data and working on the interpretation and I'm just glad that it turned out more than okay.

I think my luck is finally turning.  Now if someone will only give me money. Hehe. 🙂

I'd like to remember Nanay the way she was before her stroke.  She was a woman always on the go, with the energy of a 30-year-old.  People always thought her younger than her years.  She was involved with a lot of stuff.  She was active in our parish and served as our only lay delegate to the diocesan synod.  She was the Vice-President of her alumni association.  She never said no to assignments to head committees or lead prayer meetings in BLD.  As a teacher, she shared her expertise with students in both the undergrad and graduate levels.  She was a strict and demanding teacher.  But what she demanded from her students, she also demanded from herself.  She challenged her students to test their limits, to never be satisfied with mediocrity, and to reach for their dreams. 

As a mother, she gave the best to her children.  Even with limited finances, she made sure we got the best education.  She took us on trips to widen our horizons and make us aware of a world beyond that with which we are familiar.  She took care of us in every aspect – even cleaning our rooms and fixing our closets when we were old enough to do it ourselves.  She pushed us, encouraged us, and helped us to realize our full potentials.  She was everything a mother could be – and more. 

Nanay before her stroke was an excellent school administrator, an accomplished teacher, a good writer, an eloquent speaker, a loving wife, a supportive mother, a doting grandmother.   

That's the Nanay I want to preserve in my memory.

Although vanity is the devil's favorite sin (Al Pacino in The Devil's Advocate), I still think that the root of all evil is money – whether it's an excess or a lack. 

It's money that can cause the sweetest friendship to go sour.   

It's money that can break up even the most loving of relationships between husband and wife.  

It's money that can make a grandmother say hateful things and wish ill and damnation upon a granddaughter that she cared for as a baby. 

It's money that can cause a priest to call an employee a traitor.

It's money that can ruin the love between a mother and a child, between siblings.

But then again, money can also be the root of all happiness.  I have read somewhere that if we can be happy with or without money, then we can be truly happy.  But the question is, can we be truly happy without money?

Can we be happy when we have no money to buy milk for our children?  I think not.

Can we be happy when we cannot buy medicines for a sick parent?  I think not.

Can we be happy when we find our homes in darkness because we can no longer pay the electricity bill?  I definitely think not.

I think having too much or too little of money is not a good thing.  Having just enough is just right.  We shouldn't have too much money because it could make us selfish and greedy.  Neither should we have too little because it could make us envious. 

I just wish I had enough right now. 

My friend Omski (who doesn’t blog but bloghops) left me a comment about Disney movies and how we never get tired of watching them a million times over, especially movies like Finding Nemo, Monsters, Inc., and Toy Story. I’ve realized that it’s not just the movies that I could watch over and over, but even the shows they have on Disney Channel. I like their shows because they teach good values to kids.

Take for instance the cartoon show, Brandy and Mr. Whiskers. There was this episode where Brandy was asked by Mrs. Crocodile to take care of her eggs, which were about to hatch. But Brandy was invited by some friends to go to this lagoon, so she left the eggs to Mr. Whiskers, who had to take care of them himself. Unknown to Brandy, Mr. Whiskers didn’t have his eye on the eggs the whole time, especially since he took them for a walk and accidentally nudged the stroller down a hill. When she came home, she was surprised but pleased to see Mr. Whiskers with the eggs who were just starting to hatch. But instead of crocs, they got a bird, a snake, a duck (I think) and some other animals. Turns out Mr. Whiskers had to look for replacement eggs because he lost some of the eggs when they fell out of the stroller. It’s such a simple story, but it taught a valuable lesson on responsibility.

While many of their shows are comedies, like That’s So Raven, Suite Life of Zack and Cody, and Lizzie McGuire, they’re good shows which always have lessons to tell. They never fail to give me a good laugh, and they’re the kind of shows I let Enzo watch.

Is it typhoon season already?  I hope not.  It's been raining for the past two days here in Bacolod because of Typhoon Caloy.  And I haven't been to the beach yet!  Come to think of it, I haven't really felt the summer season (save for the heat, of course), because I haven't had time to go on a vacation since summer started. 

Doesn't seem like May, more like July because the sun hasn't been out since yesterday morning.  I don't really like rainy days because I hate getting wet – and my allergic rhinitis acts up when the weather is not so good.  Rainy days mean a runny nose for me. 😦  And, on days like these, I really miss my hubby (who is still in Manila for a team building activity – buti pa sya nasa beach ngayon! hmmp!).  He's coming back on Sunday pa.  That's two days away pa!!

I just wish it would stop raining. 

 

The past week or so has been a helluva week for me.  Like I said, after I handed in my resignation, our school president has been thinking up ways to make me miserable.  I'll spare you the details, but suffice it to say, that for these past two weeks, I feel like I've been used and abused.  They've just given me more reason to leave this place. 

The stress must have gotten to me because the other night I had to be rushed to the hospital at 10:30 PM because of painful urination.  I was diagnosed with UTI and had to take antibiotics.  Good thing the doctors didn't require me to be admitted because I didn't want to leave my kids at home, especially since the hubby is in Manila (again) for work.

Anyway, a friend told me I have to focus on the positives and not the negatives.  What they (my immediate head and the president) are doing to me won't bring me down.  I'm made of much tougher stuff than they think.  I know the reason why they are doing this to me is because I caught them unaware and they know that no one else can sufficiently fill my place.  Come to think of it, I've been doing most – if not all – of the work in this office since I came in four years ago.  And I've never bragged about what I have accomplished.  And I don't take credit for the work that I don't do.  Can't say the same for my boss – whose main purpose in life is to spend "quality time" with his boylets.

I know I have a lot to look forward to.  Better career opportunities.  Better pay.  Better benefits for me and my kids (I could give them a good La Sallian education for free!).  I just want to be free of all these negative things.  Sabi ko nga sa HRD staff namin, "anything is better than this place!"

I am so looking forward to the big move! 

It’s official! I’ve resigned from my work and although my resignation will take effect at the end of the month, I’m happy and I feel free! 🙂

When I handed in my resignation to our president, he had no reaction and just told me to inform HRD and process my exit clearance. That’s it? I wasn’t expecting him to stop me, but the least he could have done was to ask me why. Okay, so maybe my ego was hurt. But then again, it’s a good thing because I wouldn’t have to explain why I’m leaving.

Since I didn’t tell my immediate head that I was resigning, he was informed by the president. I gave my notice last Tuesday morning, but until now he hasn’t talked to me. Deadma is the name of the game. That’s fine with me. I don’t really care anymore.

Funny thing is, I applied for a terminal leave starting May 18-31 (my remaining VL for the school year). Inapprove din naman ng boss ko – no questions asked.

I’m just happy that I’m finally leaving this place. While I have made a lot of good friends here, I feel that I am no longer growing here and I have become bitter and cynical because of the people here. It is time to move on.

Wish me luck!